Am I living in a vortex and the days have gotten shorter, the minutes have gotten quicker. It’s like there are not enough hours in the day. Perhaps I’m just slow, or I am being useless at utilising them. The days aren’t going quicker, but I am definitely not achieving a whole lot at the moment.
I feel like I often spend a lot of time planning what I need to do, writing lists and organising and then often not actually getting down to the task. As a Virgo I am organised but that doesn’t mean I get everything done!
With planning a wedding, working, consulting, doing the administration for my fiancé’s business, doing my nutrition course, trying to cook tasty healthy food, keeping on top of housework, trying to get fit. I feel like I am chasing my tail.
There is a saying, “don’t put off until tomorrow what you can do today” usually that saying would be interpreted to mean, get the fuck on with it. I have decided to turn it on its head and say no that.
I am often putting on too much pressure to get everything done. My social life, sanity, energy levels and relationship are important and I need to be aware of trying to do too much and getting annoyed with myself when I don’t achieve what I set out to.
So I have decided that what ever I can putt off until the metaphoric tomorrow I will.
I won’t make myself feel guilty about it, I will embrace the fact that I am listening to my mind and my body.
So what if I haven’t hoovered for a week or I’ve made a simple uninspiring super, my coursework waits a little while or I’ve only managed 2 workouts in a week.
My body shouts loud and clear when I am doing too much. I get spotty, I sleep badly, I get stys, I get tearful, I get grumpy.
I need to respond to my bodies demands and have down time, saying no to the things I don’t have to do right away. And most importantly for me, don’t feel bad about it. It’s so easy to give yourself a hard time for just chilling out and not getting shit done, but sometimes that is what you need!
Life is short, I don’t want to spend it stressed and tired. I spent too many years feeling like that, and I am not gonna let it happen again.